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| Two Hearts Fighting To Make My Heart All Their's |
I am stuck in a very hard spot. My heart wants to be stuck between two guys. I have two guys that are with two very different situations.
Guy 1 (Brandon): Is in Michigan. He means so much to me. He is always there for me. He understands me the most of anybody I know. He knows everything that ever happens with me. I can hold no secrets back from him. I know if there were no such thing as distance that we would be together by now. He has a great personality and that is the reason I like him the way I do. We talk daily for practically every second we have to be talking together. There isn't a time when we aren't thinking about the other.
Guy 2 (Ian): Is not too far from me. He lives where one of our houses is which is only about a 30 minute drive from this house. We started as friends way back in kindergarten. We lost contact for so many years because I changed schools and eventually moved into town for school. We got back in touch this past spring. We lost contact for a while this summer because he couldn't get to the computer nor did he have a cell. Sometime last weekend or a little before he got on the computer real quick to message me with his new cell phone and told me to text him. Since then we have texted a lot more. He texts me daily. Back in the spring I had liked him yet again but over the summer somehow that thought passed by my mind but when we started texting again it hit me that I still liked him.
Now the big situation that happened to confuse me even more happened last night. I talked to Brandon and told him all about Ian and how things picked up again. He understood and still continued to tell me he loves me. Immediately after that conversation we went back to talking and flirting like we usually do. Then later that night I text Ian to just have a normal conversation but he sensed something was up and so I told him I wasn't gonna text it but eventually I gave in and just told him. He seemed very upset about what I was saying. Turns out he had something on his mind that made him like that. He later told me that he was sorry that he was acting like that and that it might be a little forward but he said he loved me. He basically was just as jealous as Brandon when he first knew anything about the other guy. Ian told me he wanted all of me or none of me. I told him them both who ever loves me for real will fight for me. The thing is they both fought much harder then.
Now I'm confused on what I should do. I don't want to loose either of them but I'm not sure which one I can really go for realistically for that beyond friendship thing.
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