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Keep me underground...
I want to stay hidden.. God damn this life. Why is it that every obstacle I face, I always fail in trying to over come it? Am I malfunctioning? Or is it REALLY the end of it all? Should I even try now that I know that I will most likely 99% of the time fail epically? What does it......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-12 14:13:14 | Rating:

| Views: 30 | Comments: 0 | Tags: suicidal thoughts melancholy questions fighting life

Marijuana
Alrighty, I have just a few words to say about... weed. Why is it illegal? Its illegal because the government wants to increase their power over us! LEGALIZE IT!: If you legalize marijuana, you will take it out of the hands of criminals and (probably,......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-12 18:29:15 | Rating:

| Views: 61 | Comments: 4 | Tags: marijuana ganja THC legalization pot weed criminals

I just broke up
With my boyfriend of two years, it was my decision... but I wonder... Did I make the right choice? I regret it, but my spirit doesn't feel heavy, just my conscience. I feel like I killed him and when I think about that, my depression deepens. Never in my life......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-14 00:25:54 | Rating:

| Views: 62 | Comments: 5 | Tags: relationships breaking up sadness

Rahs
I swear this banter between us is quite torturous! Your words are soothing and then again they disturb emotions in me that have not been revealed in ages. How is that YOU, my dear one, are able to get under my skin so damn easily? You are making me beg for more......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-22 01:37:28 | Rating:

| Views: 17 | Comments: 1 | Tags: Benjamin Holz Rahs Smitten

I am the happiest
I have ever been in quite sometime! All because of a certain person named.... Benjamin Holz. I don't need people to make me happy (I'm sort of a misanthrope) but Ben makes me excited to find the joy in being around people. And his feeling were definitely reciprocated =)......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-26 13:53:12 | Rating:

| Views: 26 | Comments: 2 | Tags: Rahs Benjamin Holz Happy Terminator Salvation

FINALLY!!!!!
BEN ASKED ME OUT! YES! Life is gooooooooooood =) ...Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-28 01:18:38 | Rating:

| Views: 13 | Comments: 2 | Tags: Life is good

A random thing I wrote today
"I hope it hurts like hell!" she said to him. Blinded by fury, he raised his voice and replied, "It kills!" Her eyes were ablaze, blood staining her delicate hand. He was bleeding profusely. Blood gurgled out of a gaping hole in his chest. In her right hand, a......Read More