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Its the same everyday... living life for somebody...
Like a floating plank... along with the flow of river; with the flow of time... doing the routine things...
They say for a better life, there needs to be an aim, and a passion and determination to acheive the same.
A man without any aim or hope in life is as good as dead...
I did try to have some aim.. something to dream, think and be passionate about...
But what to dream... so much options and things i could fantasise and aim for...
In the end there is no final one... or still not able to shortlist one...
Finally things boil own down to the same routine thought.. i need to have an aim, dream it strongly, so strongly and each day take a step closer towards it and in the end bingo...
Everytime i make resolution, i don't want to be depressed anymore or bog down myself with negative thoughts... i write it down... unlike the last time... this is final one, from this day, this moment i wll change...
Only to write down the samething things... this is final one, from this day, this moment i will change... in the next page...
Even if i try to dream and fantasise, the so called "realistic" thoughts creeps in and adds all the uncertainity and negative things that finally, you yourself doubt... is it achievable...
I had tried all approaches... using neurological science and tried to found out the biological reason for being depressed...
Tried to reprogram the subconscious mind and such psychological approaches...
In the end what happens... where i go... frustrated i sleep over hoping to change myself in sleep...
And I wakeup... the same me... same everything... frustrated... hoping to make a break
Will i never get out of this... will i never be freed... will i never live life in joy ?
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Posted by fiasco_no_more on 2008-07-24 00:54:59 | Rating: | Views: 49
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hey there, i sooo know what you mean. I get depressed also and have also tried just about every known thing under the sun. I just tend to ride it out now and try (try being the operative word) to keep my thoughts on the things i want rather than the old horrid stuff.
i hope you can get that joyful life soon. you sound as if you really really deserve it.
LH.
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Posted by loveshope
on 2008-07-24 01:33:54
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