My work is a cause for concern in my life. Firstly, I started work in November and my boss told me that i was performing poorly. I didn't expect this but I was extremely hurt. Then I started working my ass of to show that I am better than they thought and I feel even more exhausted because no matter how much effort I put in, there's always a hell of a lot more to do, and the worst part is that 3/4 of it is new to me. Sometimes I feel like I'm lost and that I should have been a designer or a florist or something that really requires not so much intellect but creativity. 

I'm torn between starting a consultancy and remaining employed. It all leaves me very exhausted.