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i love this guy that has no care in the world for me
but that once made me think i was everything to him
it was just so real
sometimes i think that he really did loved me
but was it true?..or maybe he was just a very good lier...
my friends try to make me feel better
by saying that he left me because he really did loved me.
since he joined the national guard and is gonna have to leave soon.
for a long time.
i think that he just wanted me to have fun for a while,
then i probly got him bored and just like that
he dumped me.
it kills me knowing that he doesnt care about me no more
because there is not a day that i dont think about him
before i go to bed, or when i wake up, or all the time.
it still hurts when i listen to certain songs,
that bring back memories.
i know im stupid, because... why would you love someone that only played with you, righ??.. well i do.
and it hurts everytime i see him
my heart just drops, and everything stops
and i have to pretend that everything is right
and just smile back at him, like nothing is wrong
when really im dying inside.
i feel like crying to make myself feel better but i cant.
i still have his pictures and that one heart he made me..
i wonder if he kept my lolipop, the one he had next to my picture in his room.
i wonder if he still remembersthat one time we made out inside a chiminey
i wonder if he ever thinks about me
at least once in a very long while. i wonder what went through his mind
when he decided to ask me out.
i wonder when will i get over him...................
its been more than 6 months already and its not getting any better
my heart hurts..... and theres nothing
I or anyone else can do about it.

he told me he would take me to a place like this.
im still waiting.