I slept with his good friend.
Really very truelly the worst mistake ever?
I think so!
We met up for a drink at the local pub, but obviously one thing led to another. He invited me back to his. I accepted. God knows why!
I knew what I was doing was wrong. Perhaps why I carried on?
But all I can see now is Bretts face when he saw me. Just the very next morning. How could he know already? Did this friend of his set me up?
Sheer disappointment was in his eyes as he looked at me. Hurt lined his face.
Now he knows how it feels.

It breaks my heart seeing the two of them together. I thought it was just a fling. A one night stand. Obviously not.
They way their eyes meet, they way they smile at each other, the way she goes all soppy towards him.
I can't stand it.
It makes me want to scream. Just be somewhere where i can scream and cry for how ever long i want to.
Once i'm out of this job the better.

My biggest hate thought, the way he is still asking for me to fogive him and take him back.
But what surpirses me is my strength. As much as i want him back, as much as i love him, I will not take him back.
I want the old him. Not the knew him.
As people tell me - He's cheated once so he'll do it again.