I read this one, but I need to go read the rest. Sounds like you have a full plate going on right now. Sounds a bit overwhelming. I hope you can find yourself a good job and accomplish all that you want to do. Nothing is impossible. If you want it bad enough, you will find a way to make it happen.
Good luck.


...dani

Unfortunately life is full of uncertainity, even more so once you get out of school. School is very structured - it tells you where to go and at what time. You are given course studies to help you be successful. Unfortunately not so much in life. I had a scholarship for Hockey until the middle of my Junior year when I blew out me knee. Pretty much dropped out after I couldn't play anymore and didn't have a whole lot of direction. At that time I had the exact same concerns as you do - kind of like, ok so now what. I didn't have anyone helping to guide me. From that I learned that life is pretty much 20% of what happens to you and 80% of how you react to it. Life is going to happen, both the good and the bad but what you have the most control over is how you look at it and how you react to the adversity as well as the good times. End of the day, things work out. Maybe not like you planned but the way that they are suppose to. Don't overthink it too much and just enjoy the ride. This is the only life you have right now - don't let it slip away by worrying. Focus on the current 5 seconds and enjoy everyone of them - anything before that is the past and anything in front of it is planning for the future.

I was a music education major, had a mini-stroke (the doctors believe) before my sophomore year and lost all motor control. Not only could I not walk, I couldn't buzz my lips to play my horn or cordinate my fingers to play the piano... or talk clearly because half of my face was drooping. I had to drop out of school for a quarter, change my major, and sacrifice playing becaue I couldn't do it any more.

I know what it's like - I truly do.

I found new interests, and after weeks of rehabilitation I could walk again so I came back to campus - and eventually after more hard work and physical training I can march and play again and I reauditioned for the Marching 110 and made it.

You're right, life is mostly how you react to it.