So my foolishness continues.
I have wined, yet again to my friends, about the supervisor at work, whom of which has been flirting with me. And to his defence, i have indeed been leading him on.

I went to the gym today, and really worked hard, i pushed myself harder than usual (something which i do occasionally if there is something on my mind) and really enjoyed it. However I emerged from the gym, fresh faced and physically enlightened, only to find a text message on my phone.
It was the person in the question (the supervisor i mentioned). The hold me about his day, and how he was in the pub after football.
I replied, commenting on how i wished i was in the pub with my mates. So he said maybe he and myself could have a drink sometime.

I called a friend, to give me some advice, as alone, i am hopeless and incapable of doing sometimes to obvious right-thing. She said, that as i did not find him physically attractive, i should let him down gently and carefully, on account of his possition in my firm.
However is this good advice. No one can administer advice, if they dont know the whole the whole story. I cant bring myself to say it, or admit it to myself, but i think i may actually like him, and accepted the invitation.

IM SO MAD!! i shouldnt like him. I tell myself I dont like him. I know, deep down, i dont actually like him, i cant tell my friends and shame myself to say i like him.
But at the end of the day, i think i might like him. I DONT WANT TO.
Maybe it because of the sad, and scary fact that in this past year gone, i have only had sex with my ex, and mostly it was terrible. And i want to errase that. But if things did progress with this guy, i would need to errase this also, and i work with him, which makes it ten times worse!