glad not to be alone. glad to know many others in have walked through this and have seen the other the side of the tunnel. i cant see the light at the end yet but i have restored hope that it is there. i take comfort that my Beloved is with me. i still dont feel ready. will i ever be ready? dont know. dont feel ready to responsible for someone so delicate and beautiful...i dont want to mess up. though i cant be perfect. dont feel ready to have this burden for many small delicate ones. i cant do this. perhaps that is the point.