Deep darkness. nothing to see. nothing to hear. just plain nothing. Once again I stand here in this deep disgusting cavern of mess. It almost overtook me last time. But this time is much different... though my emotions take me on a rollercoaster ride, past issues come in waves, it is overwhelming. But You are with me. Despair and hopeless ensue but yet You are still holding me. I am glad I don't have to do this on my own. Hold me forever and never ever let go.