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family
my poor baby is sick. which is normal for little ones but it is still heartbreaking. though my love didnt make sure she had ample liquids and food but that is another story. i am still working, working but i have gymnastics with my little one to look forward to in the morning. it is sooo cute to......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-30 23:53:11 | Rating:

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regular day
Well, after reading my own posts on here. I would think Im a bit of whiner and or very dramatic. I will admit to the drama queen or at least in the theater of my mind. I seem to only write when I am extremely upset or depressed. I am alright today because I only had to work one job today. plus,......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-18 17:21:29 | Rating:

| Views: 46 | Comments: 0 | Tags: awal miserable hubby marriage

tunnels
it is so funny how one area of life can be so dead and depressing and another is flowing with life and joy. Though my heart longs for life and joy to be in both, actually all of it. I often wonder why exactly do we long to be one with someone else who is just a messed up as we are. and somehow......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-12 00:36:44 | Rating:

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tears
i'm tired of being sad and depressed. it seems like in every season there was something to make me depressed about like my life just one endless woe. Or perhaps it is me. maybe i'm too easily impressed by the situations of life. too easily moved, too sensitive. is there an off button? if someone......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-09 01:04:44 | Rating:

| Views: 51 | Comments: 1 | Tags: uncomfortable beloved volcano tears

last rope
at the last rope and dont know how another year is gonna be. will i have to change jobs because there seems to be disunity over it? times of transition are so diffucult mostly becuase of the unknown and the uncertainity of it all. turned another year and i am not sure that if i were myself at 16......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-12 00:42:58 | Rating:

| Views: 55 | Comments: 0 | Tags: transition change diffucult

happy mothers day to me
well it is my first official mothers day and its alright. except for the fact that once again my mother has a fit over nothing because i did what she asked. but apparently she was trying to do the 'fake humbleness'. whatever, mom. say what you mean and mean what you say. i am done with mind......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-12 00:32:27 | Rating:

| Views: 67 | Comments: 0 | Tags: mother family selfish mean baby fake

hallmark movies
yes, i admit to watching the pathetic sappy movies. But so many are about missing their true love and how much they regret it and wish for another chance. So what about you are with that soulmate/true love but it is not a disney production. then what? i know if i saw this exact blog about 4 years......Read More

Posted on: 2008-03-08 00:31:52 | Rating:

| Views: 67 | Comments: 2 | Tags: sap movies soulmate love true love

small one
glad not to be alone. glad to know many others in have walked through this and have seen the other the side of the tunnel. i cant see the light at the end yet but i have restored hope that it is there. i take comfort that my Beloved is with me. i still dont feel ready. will i ever be ready? dont......Read More

Posted on: 2008-03-06 00:26:51 | Rating:

| Views: 55 | Comments: 0 | Tags: teeny tiny small itsy bitsy small

keep your word
I love him dearly, dont get me wrong. I try to do all I can to build him up as a person and as a man. But I am soooo frustrated. supposed to be in this together. NOT! I dont understand how a person can make vows to do this and that and thats it. Why would you promise? dont promise unless you mean......Read More

Posted on: 2008-02-28 18:41:44 | Rating:

| Views: 55 | Comments: 1 | Tags: word keep

darkness
Deep darkness. nothing to see. nothing to hear. just plain nothing. Once again I stand here in this deep disgusting cavern of mess. It almost overtook me last time. But this time is much different... though my emotions take me on a rollercoaster ride, past issues come in waves, it is......Read More