its been quite sometimes since my last entry and i miss writing!! anyweiz, its been too long since a thought came to me, and as a matter of fact, as i write this one, it still bothers me why i write..but thats not the case! the purpose of this writing is a very special friend of mine...
Taking chances at a edge of hurting
bein hurt is undeniably terrible!! it make us asked why? how? it confusses us how are we doin in this world? we never stop asking why us? or are we desrving to get hurt? are we destined to be one? whatever it is, the bottom line is-- we are hurt and whatever we do, it is the way it is!
yesterday, i happened to saw my ex again. after a long time, it just yesterday i got the chance to see him. and he's not that ordinary ex of mine! he's the one i'd give everything to before. he's the air I breathe, the soul of my body, the blood of my system! in short he happens to be my life, my everything!- but that was before! after we broke up, I thought, i'd never be complete again! that I'd never be the same! that i couldn't love again! i've cried over and over! suffer sleepless nights..filing my heart with all the hopes and chances that we can still make it! but still, nothing has changed! he moved on to his life and i'm stOcked! and then, i just find myself worthless! i had nithing to do with the situation! everything is done and we can't turn back time!
so, i decided to just let it go and enjoy my life! i try not to reminisce about what we were before, it's hard, really really hard, but i tried and one day i just found my self totally over him! i cry no more whenever our anniversary arrives, i stop smiling when i saw our old stuff, it helps when i don't see him! it helps me move one. i feel no more (not totally no more) less I should say whenever I hear his name. I'm not crazy about him unlike before!
and God has given me a well deserved love. someone came along. gave me everything I need. loved me despite of what i've been through. I told him about my past love and he took risk! at first, i was so afraid! AFRAID TO BE LEFT ALONE AGAIN, AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN! BUT, THIS sOMEone gives me the comfort and take the risk with me. it took sometime, for me not to be afraid, but, apparently it works! my fear is gone because I never i'll never be left again!
it's not easy to trust again I know, but, how can we moved on and find that One for us if we wont take the risk? taking risk is the scariest but happiest thing you can do to be happy. it is fearful i know, it can also bring us to edge of everything, but, realize that it is our passport for the best! it may not always result for what you want, but atleast you try!
never be afraid to take risk! yes, you've been hurt, you had your fall, but always remember that you have to get up and have your life back! its never the end, its always the beginning..
sooner or later, you'll found out that taking chances helps you find A WELL DESERVED LOVE!.
so ate joice, never stay at your past! it will never do you good. it'll just stock you! live up your life. don't be afraid to love again. you deserve it! dont hesitate to try it make us learn.
and the best part before anything else, LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF A LITTLE MORE.. so that the next time that love comes your way, you are prepared and never be afraid again!
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