I currently have like, 5 months till graduation, and let me tell you how excited I am! I can't wait to move out and like get to be all independent and stuff. I'm just not looking forward to paying my own bills, which is a problem right now. I just got a job at Togo's, I start tonight at 6. Last night my parents and I were talking and like, I got offended. They are acting like I was born yesterday and won't be able to figure things out myself. Here is the conversation I had with my mom last night.

Mom: You can live here with us and go to san fran state.
Me: I don't have the grades to go there.
Mom: But me and Johnny have connections.
Me: I do not have the grades to go there.
Mom: But...
Me: I do not have the grade!(at this point I'm getting irritated.)
Mom: Well maybe after you go to the JC you can go to SF state.
Me: After I go to the JC I want to go to NYU, when I'm done at JC I'm moving out of California, and not coming back.
Mom: Well how are you going to pay for that, I'm not going to pay for you to go to NYU, I just will not pay for you to go there when you can to SF state for free.
Me: Well then I guess your not going to help me pay for college.

What really pissed me off is that all through my elementary school days and high school days my mom never wanted to be a part of my schooling, and now all the sudden she wants me to move back in with her and help me go to school? My mom never really gave a shit, so why should she now? It really urks me that she never wanted to be a part of my life, but now that I'm going to be on my own she wants me back. Too late. She isn't going to have a say in what I do.

Then the arguement really began.

Mom: You waste your money on stupid things, like MAC and Abercrombie.
Me: I don't wear Abercrombie.
Mom: My point is you're going to have a rude awakening when you move out, your going to have to pay for everything.
Me: I know that, mom. I will. Dawn(my "aunt" who I am moving in with) is hooking me up with a job with her and Warped. I'll be able to do this, it makes me mad that you think I can't.
Mom: You've never had to pay for anything! You get everything you want and never have had to face the real world.

Let me break in and kinda fill you in. My mom never gave money to my dad for child support, so while my dad did buy me things I needed, he didn't buy what I wanted. If I wanted make up, I had to buy it. I do know how it is to have to shop on sale, my parents never gave me money. They only provided what was needed.

Me: I do know! I'm not an idiot, I wasn't born yesterday. I'm more motivated than you ever were.

Here's another thing to explain. My mom has been working at the same dead end job for almost 22 years, and she complains about it EVERDAY. She wants a change, but isn't MOTIVATED ENOUGH to go get a freakin new job. So don't come at me like that.

Mom: What?!? I had a job when I was younger than you were, and I was always working.

At this point I was like I need to go because I don't want to fight with you.

Mom: Bye princess.(Click)

WTF EVER!

I don't know, I'm pretty upset that for the last 13-14 years she didn't want to be included in my life, and now that I'm almost an adult she wants to be included? No way. Hell no. She's crazy.
Parents please give me some advice if I am wrong. I just feel like my parents don't think I can do it. I want a better life for myself, I want the big house and cars. I strive to give my kids more than what I had. My dad did give me a good life though, I have to say. He supports me through pretty much everything. So I don't know. I'm just a jumble of confusion.