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well weslsey broke up with me again on the twenty fifth. hmm it was because of the cutting=/yeah i dont get it... if he loved me he wouldnt have broken up with me he would have helped me.yeah it hurt like hell but it made me realize that i had to stop so i guess it was for the best. i was so sick for the whole next week.i puked non stop i practically lived in th e bathroom=/yeah i couldnt stop shaking i didnt eat at all i couldnt sleep erg i shouldnt let him have that effect on me. it is just so hard not to i love him so much and he really really acts like he loves me but i just dont know anymore. the other day he told me that if i kept it up(not cutting) then we could get back together before school starts .... but we would have to go somewhere before it was final so he could check my wrist... erg i seriously stopped cutting i had to ..it gives me the chance to get him back and i would do anything for that...i know,i know im just another stupid girl arent i .well the day after we discussed getting back together he told my friend katlyn(also his friend)that he might start dating another girl!!!wow !!!and of course she would tell me cause she is a good friend.(Oh btw at this point he is still calling me babe and baby and telling me that he loves me) so i text him about this older girl and i say so your going to date another girl...an older girl and he said huh?and i was like dont play fucking dumb wesley katlyn told me and he was like well i dont know what to say babe, i never said i wouldnt date other girls while we were broken up .erg it hurt so bad. then i told him not to call me baby anymore and then i stopped texting him. he text every day and i always text back. oh my gosh yesterday i was texting one of my friends and the message sent to him to it was about him.. it said that i thought he didnt like me anymore and he text back and was like you dont think i like you anymore? and i replied with kinda and then he said why and i said well you dont talk or treat me the same and you were thinking about dating another chick well then he said i dont talk to or treat you the same because you dont let me ... you dont even let me call you baby anymore and i only thought about dating another girl because we arent together=/and then i replied with maybe that is because i am not your girlfriend anymore and he was like i know=/ and it makes me upset and i just wish we could go back to how we used to be and i told him that i missed it more than he did and he was like i doubt it and i disagreed and yeah then he told me he loved me and that he had to go. erg guys are complicated . hmmm i have no clue what to do =/
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