| View Blog
|
|
|
|
| Spilled milk leads to the Apocolypse. |
Okay..I know i wrote a really sad blog before about things between me and matt, Well I clearly overreacted. I got Matt to look at the blog because.. well i have trouble communicating and articulating to people how I feel or whats wrong. I know I said some harsh things in there.. but i didn't know any other way to explain it. Matt is an honest person and he understands it.
Well he came home and I told him he should read it to better understand how I felt. I was folding laundry at the time and putting it in the drawers as he went into his room to read it.
I finished folding and joined him in his room. As I recalled everything I wrote in my head, I could feel myself start to tear up. He finished reading it, his eyes red-rimmed,something I wasn't expecting. I fell apart in his arms and cried as he asked me not to leave him, that he loved me. I could feel it in the way he hugged me. The way our tears mixed together. The way he spoke. He meant every word. I was an idiot to doubt it. To doubt the depth of his love for me,how much he cared. i felt so close to him,so happy that i could say that he was my man and that i was his woman. We talked for a while,still holding each other as he bathed my cheeks and forehead in kisses.
He later went fishing with his cousin Bradley and enjoyed himself. ^_^ I really had hoped for that. We do a lot of things together but.. i honestly thought this would be something good for just the "boys" to do. I knew he wanted me to go, but i thought since we're together and living together.. I'm sure theres going to be more than one chance for us to fish together. I waited up for him in his room. Atually falling asleep until he came in. We talked and cuddled. watched a few episodes on Adult Swim and he laid down with me. I kiiinda fell asleep again. T_T But it didn't seem like he minded this time. I think he tried to wake me up at one point, but i can vaguely recall it.. like he nuged me and sadi something I think. (Because we have to go into our separate rooms when we go to bed while his parents are here) I don't recall much else. i felt really warm though.. he stayed really close to me, probably as much as he could without us combusting.lol. I felt him roll over and my mind suddenly snapped back to me as i groggily sat up in the bed. I knew i needed to go back to my room. I looked over to my side and admired how peaceful he looked sleeping. You know how people say that when you sleep your features soften? He didn't look like that to me. He looked comfortable, happy, pleased with his life.He looked like a man. I felt my heart tickle and smile at this, warming at the thought that some day, God-willing, I'll have the same assurance in his face thats even etched in his sleep,lying next to him as his loving woman. I grinned and slipped out of the bed, turning off the light as i went, turning again and admiring him as i closed the door and went into my room. That was the best peaceful sleep I've felt in a long time.
I really love Matthew Lee. He honestly has my heart. He's my everything, my present and future. <3
|
|
|
|
| |
|
|
| Views: 41
Email This to a Friend 