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Mind-stabbing silence on lollipops
Soooo I haven't been on here in forever and like.. completely ashemd of myself for that. Leeeeemmeee update a little. I am still in Alabama, my living situation is still a tad unstable, I have a sweet boyfriend, I'm looking for a new job (the old one cut my hours since the......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-05 03:39:33 | Rating:

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Reality is a bitch.
So I keep running and now I'm noticing no matter how far I go, hell always seems to find me. Tio seemed alright..still does.. but in my mind's eye..he's nothing but a sad old man who uses the identity of a "kind" Daddy dom that offers my mother and me a home...only to drag money out of......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-06 05:41:34 | Rating:

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Espoir, foi, et amour
Its going to happen. I was over at Matt's house today and we were cleaning up one of the extra bedrooms that his nieces sleep in on the weekends. He blushed a lot and avoided looking at me when his mother mentioned several times," Oh Ariel, we're going to be so glad to have you. And we've......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-08 03:01:25 | Rating:

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"Tristesse"
Well I don't know if I mentioned before but I am now living with my boyfriend and his family. Its been almost a full week. I haven't been able to find a job for the last several weeks, I'm afraid to drive around to find one because I don't have the money to do that sort of thing (my bf is......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-15 10:14:48 | Rating:

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Head over feet
Yarp. Things got resolved. The same day my mother called me to convince me to go eat with her. Then at Gelato Joe's.. I spilled out what I was feeling, my stress, my worries, sadness, etc. Surprisingly, mum actually helped.. she helped me sort through things, even distracted me from......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-17 14:59:42 | Rating:

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Sadness,Sight, Strength, Stability.
Yesterday was eventful. My mother was finally set to leave Alabama to get away from Kyle and his abuse (as far as she will tell me it was only emotional and verbal, thought I doubt it). Matt and I offered to help her load things in the Uhaul the day before from storage. Then.. out of no......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-21 16:08:05 | Rating:

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I cheer back up and get knocked back down.
I feel sad. I didn't feel totally sad on Saturday. Matt's nieces were coming over and we spent most of the morning fiddling around in my cothes, talking about school, and just being girlie. I hate to say it but I actually liked it a lot. Made me feel like I was in Goergia again.. it felt......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-29 11:15:05 | Rating:

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Spilled milk leads to the Apocolypse.
Okay..I know i wrote a really sad blog before about things between me and matt, Well I clearly overreacted. I got Matt to look at the blog because.. well i have trouble communicating and articulating to people how I feel or whats wrong. I know I said some harsh things in there.. but i didn't know......Read More