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Life Spots and Boxes
Blood red is the wetness warm on my arm cold on the soaked towel Red as life and cold as death.... 2/25/98 what its like...... I was young when I first started to cut myself. At first I just did it to control the pain. It was easier to......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-01 21:30:14 | Rating:

| Views: 19 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Self Inflicted Violence SiV blades blood boxes memories lifeforce slice flesh past trapped life-spots

When Words Wound
*This may be triggering to other Survivors, so I want to warn All Other Survivors for this Reason before they read this blog. * When Words Wound... 2007-03-08 You have such a pretty face. A look at the words that hurt us. Sometimes, you have to put up with so......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-01 23:45:26 | Rating:

| Views: 14 | Comments: 0 | Tags: words thoughtless Survivor issues date-rape

A Survivor Warning and explanantion or two
*This may be triggering to other Survivors, so I want to warn All Other Survivors for this Reason before they read this blog. * The warning you see above will appear on many of my Survivor blogs that have been shared on many other sites, Writing.com; shoutpost.com; tokoni.com blogger,......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-02 00:27:47 | Rating:

| Views: 23 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Survivor life love abuse child father uncle spiritual abuse terror

Can I forgive...
or Why do I have to? 2007-03-08 WARNING: to all Survivors this may be triggering. This may bring up questions of forgiveness, religion, faith, and your own abuse. I know this because it touches on all of those issues since they are my issues. Many people have suggested that I......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-05 00:09:44 | Rating:

| Views: 11 | Comments: 0 | Tags: rape forgiveness hatred convert witness Paganism Druid Goddess blame god cutting

Confessions
Are they good for the spirit? 2007-03-16 *This may be triggering to other Survivors, so I want to warn All Other Survivors for this Reason before they read this blog. * We all come from the Goddess, And to her we shall return Like a drop of rain Flowing to the......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-05 00:25:47 | Rating:

| Views: 19 | Comments: 0 | Tags: marriage My Mom Catholicism paganism adults-lie childhood abuse love? father spanking TRUST respect-earned

The Night I was Collared...
Some parts of this may be triggering to other Survivors, read at your own risk* A Look at the Past & Present: The Night I was Collared Jan 3rd 2008 I remember walking into the NYC Fetish store. Looking at the nipple clamps and feeling the wetness immediately flood......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-05 09:21:17 | Rating:

| Views: 91 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Collaring NYC Fetish Nipple Clamps slave Master NYC NJ GA safe therapy panic attacks german sheppards black dogs Uncle child abuse behavioral therapy Sex therapist Druid

Veggie toppings Or
Bob the Tomato: strikes again 3-10-2007 may be triggering to some survivors read at your own risk, deals with issues of religion and marriage I was up most of the night. Doing some writing. Helping a friend who just found out that she can't trust the mate in her life.......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-05 09:51:21 | Rating:

| Views: 14 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Religion marriage witness god Goddess Pagan Says Grace Deidre Veggie tales Bob the tomato ISCA Christianity

Daddy Dearest
WARNING: This WILL be triggering to Survivors with issues with Abuse, Family concerns, Rape, and many other Survivor type issues, read at your own risk* 11-30-2007 A poem dedicated to my Father Daddy dearest I don’t understand your reasoning As you unload......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-05 10:16:22 | Rating:

| Views: 256 | Comments: 8 | Tags: cutting Father death rape incest spousal rape disability god/Goddess dogs fear hatred welts whippings failure wife daughter

Special Angel? or
what the demon did to me. 2007-03-08 *This may be triggering to other Survivors, so I want to warn All Other Survivors for this Reason before they read this blog. * I share this now.. it was written a few years ago.. someone here suggested that perhaps other......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-05 12:45:25 | Rating:

| Views: 42 | Comments: 3 | Tags: suicide innocence adults pedofile poetry pain uncle father trauma

The Pagan Says Grace
3-14-2007 The table round contains the Earth and thus becomes the Mother We share her bounty in this hour and Bless and love each other. So Mote it Be! It's a good Life. I can I will I believe Thank you Mother Earth and Father Sky. It's a dinner blessing used at......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-05 17:13:52 | Rating:

| Views: 79 | Comments: 2 | Tags: Faiths beliefs hatred bigotry children Mom Druid Circles Covens Assembly of god lying war democracy being true to one's self and one's...