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You may know me. Iam the girl who gives you encouraging words when you are feeling down. I am the one that you only talk to when you need a hug or a friendly face. I am the person you scream at and then apologize and excus yourself for "venting" at me. I am the girl who says it's all right and smiles. Well the fact is, it's not alright. smiling everyday in the midst of all your troubles takes it's tole on me. I want to help you but you need to understand I am human.
I am the person you look at and think, "Isn't she sweet?" - I hate being "sweet'. Can't you see I am intelligent and serious?
You say, "You are always so happy."- Well I am not. I enjoy life but i cry sometimes to.
Get this, I am selfish too. I don't do everyhting i could for other people. i feel guilt and shame and anger and hurt but if you knew that your world would end. So i carry it back to a place where i can be truly alone.
Most of all, you are amazed at the fact that i don't need anyone expecept those I help. Wrong again. I long to be loved with every fiber of my being. I want to be held and kissed. I want to be allowed to cry and yell and be mean on a occasion.
You may know me. Maybe now you know me better. I am uglier than you thought. I don't want praise I want respect. It's a simple enough request.
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Posted by eggs1234 on 2007-12-21 15:34:40 | Rating: | Views: 50
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You are not ugly...you are recognizing your boundaries. A lot of us need to do a better job at that. I heard recently that people can't walk all over you if you don't lay down. Here's to standing up - for ourselves, for a change. You are on the way to getting that respect. Congratulations@
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Posted by blairstreetgirl
on 2007-12-21 15:42:58
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you sound just like me. people assume you are strong so they treat you as such,then you find yourself continuing the charade until you feel like screaming!
hugs to you xxxx
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Posted by missmarie
on 2007-12-21 15:43:20
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I am that girl too! I have recently made a pledge to myself to stop letting people walk all over me, and do what makes ME happy for a little while. There is no shame in that...
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Posted by Rajah1116
on 2007-12-21 16:24:54
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