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the reason why I am the way I am
First let me start off with a little background info.  I am 22 and pregnant with my first child.  My boyfriend has a 7 year old with his ex-wife.  Well, we were not expecting or planning for a child anytime soon, so needless to say at first neither of us were too happy with the situation.  I am excited now, I found out I am having a girl and I can finally feel her move inside of me, it's like magic!  Well everytime I bring something up about the baby to my boyfriend (we will call him D) he doesn't really get excited  or say much of anything.  Well, we went out the other night and of course we went to a few bars and he got a little drunk, and that irritated me a lot because it was the day I found out that I was having a girl I wanted to celebrate alone with him.  Well he didn't he go to the ultrasound.  He tells me that he is busy working, well my appointment was at 12 and he was done working by that time.  He then tells me that he wanted and boy and is upset about it since he already has a daughter.  Not my fault!  He is technically the one that determines the sex of the baby.  So, I had bought a little pink outfit for her, so that way I could buy the first outfit, and I showed it to him that night and he tells me that I can't expect him to get all sentimental because he has been there done that before.  Well I am just so afraid that I am the only one who cares about this child and this preganancy.  I just want him to care thats it!  Do something for me once in a while and treat me the way I deserve to be treated.  I don't think it's too much to ask for.  I'm also afraid that he isn't going to care about this child as much as he cares about his first daughter.  Is this one not important enough?  Do you not care becuase its me?  Have I done something wrong here?  I don't know what to do anymore!  I am so tempted to leave and take back the car that I bought for him and sell it to pay off the loan that way I won't have to worry about it anymore.  But, I am too much of a softie and won't do it, I don't want to live without him and I sure as hell don't want to raise a child on my own.  It's not fair to me.  He hasn't even bought me anything for the pregnancy!  He told me 2 months ago he was going to give me money for maternity clothes and has yet to do it, the only reason I have maternity clothes is becuase my mom and my sister.  There is so much more to go with the story but I don't feel like going into all that detail at the moment.
Posted by eeyoreangel12 on 2007-09-15 12:45:10 | Rating: n/a | Views: 59


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