I am seeing the doctor in about ten minutes, I'm scared.

I dont want to tell him about the week I'v had, I dont want to think about all the things swirling through my head. Thinking about them doesnt sort them out.

I dont want him to put me on some drug that will turn me into a zombie, I like me, I like who I am I dont want to change. i just want this sadness to go away. I want to be able to concentrate and have fun. I want to be happy again.