It happened. I figured it would eventually, but last night I finally realized that it was true. Our sex life has become utterly boring. Routine, even.

I didn't even bother taking my socks off. Not because we were in a mad rush of passionate emotions and needed to fuck the daylights of each other right then and there. No, this time it was simply that as I was getting undressed I figured "what's the point?".

We started out by playing a little with each other. Running our hands over each others naked bodies. In the past this was quite arousing. Couldn't fast forward thought this part fast enough, yet couldn't enjoy it long enough. She still has that rockin hard body. I love seeing her naked, I love being naked with her, I love touching her all over, I love kissing her all over. But last night it was just ordinary. Kind of touching. Not quite foreplay. I don't know what it was, but it was putting me to sleep. I've tried to spice things up and introduce new positions and offer to experiment. I've always been a "try anything once" kind of guy. She, on the other hand, has so much religious brainwashing that she even thinks masturbation is evil. She does it anyway, but the guilt rides her daily. She'll barely look at her bits and pieces in a mirror she's so ashamed of them. In 6 years she hasn't once let me see her touch herself. I've told her it's a major turn on, but she just tells me "its gross". So we go back to the routine.

"Just get on" she said. "I'm too tired to go through the motions."

"But sex IS the motions." I told her. At least while we were touching each other I could have fantasies of how good it could be. Once we started the act, the self realization of would kick in and I'd rush to get it over with.

I tried kissing all over her chest and belly. I tried going down on her but she grabbed my ears and pulled me back up to kiss her face. I sat up a bit.

"What's wrong?" She asked.

"Why don't you want me to go down on you?"

"Not tonight. I just want sex tonight." It was the same thing every. Somewhere, some comedian or sex talk show or stupid social stigmata ruined the experience. I LOVE TO GIVE HER HEAD! But, she has become too self conscious about the conditions I might experience down there. She's heard the fish taco jokes, she's worried that she might taste funny. Thing is I CRAVE her taste. She thinks that everytime she gets oral sex she's going to end up with a yeast infection in a few days. FUCK YOU SOCIETY! Thanks for ruining a good time.

Sometimes, just sometimes, she'll let me take a trip down under. And when I do, she loves every minute of it. She screams and moans a lot harder than when we're just doing regular old sex. When I finally finish her she smiles, kisses me and tells me I need to do that everytime. Somehow she loses her memory after that because we go back to regular old routine sex the next time.

She used to give me blow jobs. AMAZING BLOW JOBS! But lately hasn't because she might catch a hair. So I surprised her by shaving and while she enjoyed fondling the new, cleaner me, she still wouldn't go down because it was too much work and she just wanted sex. I said "forget it, I know you don't like going down on me." She looked shock at me saying this. "What do you mean, I used to go down on you all the time. I liked it even. You don't know that I liked it?" I tell her no and that sure that's how it used to be, but I'm lucky to get head once every three months now. She said "not tonight, but one of these times I'll treat you right." She always says that.

Back to the routine. I try offering new positions, but they "don't work" for her. I say "So what?! We'll never know if we don't try." Her response "Just sex tonight". I roll on my back so she can mount me. It's one of our two positions: girl on top or guy on top. At least if she's on top I can have free use of my hands to caress her, fondle her, hold her, etc. But not tonight, she only wants sex if I'm on top.

Fuck this feels more like work than it does play. I'm little more than a piece of meat at this point and just want the whole experience over with. I get on top and pound away for a few minutes. I usually can last for quite some time if I attempt to. I'm not a porn star pro, but I know I average 45 minutes to an hour whenever it's true sex and love making. But not tonight, since it's "Just sex tonight" I practice no self control and finish in under five minutes. Just like if I were masturbating. I wanted to get dressed and go do something productive. Like the dishes.

After I finish she smiles and kisses my mouth as I roll off of her. We kind of just lay there for a brief moment.

"Ok, my turn" she says as she looks as me.

I know the routine. I've spoiled her. Doesn't matter how good the sex is, she always expects a hand job afterwards. Where I rub her into multiple-orgasms. This used to turn into even more sex. But now she just squeals and screams while my hand works like a double agent. One more burst and she finally finishes.

"Oh you are so good to me." She says as she gets up, puts on her underwear and heads for the bathroom.