Do you ever get the feeling you are completely alone and that no one cares about you?
Its like no matter what you do you feel invisible and after a while you dont notice yourself anymore. Sometimes it feels like you're invisible, even to yourself, you see everyone elses life and the way they luive it, but you dont even live your own life.
Insignificance, like how you feel when no one notices how you feel and their talking about you, RIGHT in front of you.
Sometimes it feels like, though I'm Screaming and Crying no one sees or hears me. Its like im not living anymore, just an apparition.
Maybe Im just going crazy *shrugs* I've got no idea about myself anymore.
Am I really left behind in life, just waiting for death to claim me? Am I living for purpose?
I try so hard to be what my family wants me to be, I try to be perfect for them, but to me im perfect with my imperfections, My life is going crazy.
Sometimes I think I just need to stay away from my relatives, sometimes its better to be invisible, no matter how much I loath every second of invisibility.
Im being torn in too many directions, my Mom wishes me to be something im not, My Dad never sees me and the truth is I miss him and it feels we're nt as connected as we used to be, I wish life werent so empty and complicated..... Stupid contradictions.