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Well, here I am once again. My boyfriend Guy and me were hanging out tonight. Everything was going pretty good, but I was kinda bummed out the whole time. I mean, I love hanging out with him, but the whole 'drug' thing was kinda a downer tonight. He told me he back before 3:00 that he had to stop at home to fill out his option sheets for classes. But then, out of nowhere, he was all "oh yeah, I can come over, I just have to go home early so that I can fill them out then. My mom's expecting me". I thought, "oh yeah, okay!" Turns out, he was actually meeting the guy he buys his pot off, but when he got a call saying that the guy wouldn't be home until 6:30, he decided to just come then and then leave for that time. I doubt he's even going to fill out his option sheets. He'll probably come up with some lame ass excuse like, "oh my internet wasn't working." But whatever. His friends T and D just picked him up and drove him there. T said I could come and he'd give me a ride home, but I actually dated D once and well.. the relationship didn't exactly end well. Besides, I'd probably just sit there pissed off anyway. T and D were only driving him because they were buying some off him anyway. And I actually don't do drugs. At all. I don't even smoke pot. But yeah. So all night he was getting a bajillion phone calls on his stupid cell phone asking for drugs. Sometimes it makes me feel sort of neglected because he pays more attention to stupid drugs than me. We got into a bit of a fight tonight because i was kinda quiet. He asked why i was quiet, and I said it was no big deal. But after poking at me for like 10 minutes, i gave in and told him i just wanted more hugs. And he flipped out. And hit his cell phone on his head and now it makes a stupid squeaking noise everytime he opens and shuts his phone. Hos fault, I don't care.I don't know though. Sometimes I feel so emotionally detached from him. Like we're 2 opposite channels on the TV or something. Is it him, or is it me? I have yet to figure that out.