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Someday she will finally lose it. Become so lost that everything becomes so incoherent, so far away beyond her grasp. She can feel the toll of sadness upon her. She thinks, " Someday I will do it, let go of everything." She will warn someone she knows and talks to, but she does not trust. It has become like "The Boy Who Cried Wolf." They will see it as an empty threat, she has said these things before, she hasn't done it, and so they think she will not. Someday she will tell this person of her plans, but they will not believe her. This might be the day she actually goes through with it. This might be the day she cuts deep into herself and spills her life across the floor. Nobody will notice until the morning, most likely longer than that. She will not be missed by many. A sole few actually care about her. When the person she warned about what she was planning finds out she actually went through with it this person will become overwhelmed with guilt. This person will think to herself, "Why did she do it? Why was she so stupid?" There are many reasons she did it. When she was young she thought to herself, "There must be something wrong with me, if there wasn't my dad would love me and he would be here. He wouldn't miss my birthday every year, he would come see me at christmas time, or take me to get ice cream like the other dads do." Now it makes her jealous to see her friends' fathers. To see how much their fathers love them. All she can do is think about her own father and think that she must be the reason he doesn't love her or come to see her, even for just 5 minutes. When she finally goes through with it she will write letters. Letters to those she cares for most. She will even write one to her father telling him how worthless he was in her life. She will also write one to the one person she warned of her plans. She doesn't yet know what she is going to write in that particular letter but she will think of something, perhaps she will tell that person the truth about what she has been thinking about them for all this time, she might just leave that out to prevent any problems after she is gone. It would prevent confusion and deception. That person might even hate her for telling the truth even though she is now gone forever, only to walk through the memories of others who knew her but never fully understood her.
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Posted by disapoint3d on 2008-06-30 14:13:25 | Rating: | Views: 73
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why soooooooooo sad beauiiful girl write meeeeeeee
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Posted by coachescorner
on 2008-07-01 22:43:50
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