every morning the day anew is at your command...or, you are its command wake up and declare what the day shall bring do not let your environment declare (create your day) for you.

Writing somehow is helpful for me to realease my emotion. I think you should try it and maybe it can help you feel better. Good luck!

The greatest tragedy in my life is having no relationship with either parent; one died while still in the throws of arguing with me, the other is near death and won't talk to me. I can certainly empathize with you, dholloway... As a Christian, I cannot judge you any more than I could judge anyone else, and have no desire to. My concern right now is that you find stability and a place in your mind where you can find peace - it's there; trust me. Keep writing - we're here to help.

John

To whom may be concerned:
So this is what it's like to Blog...
An over glorified verb that creates thoughts into words that are presented on a screen for the world to see so that everyone knows your take on life... I can almost see the point of it, I guess I'd have to considering I'm taking part in it right now... But for what? To complain? To hope that some personal opinion or rant will be talked about to another or maybe commented on? Maybe to start an argument or offend another?
I'll be honest... I probably did register here for the sole purpose of complaining...
I was curious to see what my paycheck from my new job would look like and now I’m sick to my stomach because I saw that good Ole' Uncle Sam greedily took more than 1/4 of it... That's a pretty hefty cut to hand over to some money grubbing politician whose pockets are already bursting at the seams... But I guess they have to find some way to keep theirs jets fueled...
I know its part of being an American citizen; we are obligated to work until we're 80, have embarrassing medical coverage and of course, pay ever raising taxes to insure that the next president that wants to start a war because they feel threatened by another country that refuses to be taken advantage of, has the money to fund it...
This is not to be taken wrongly, necessarily... I love my country and consider myself to be averagely patriotic... I just despise the idea that the rich keep getting richer while the rest of us scrape and suffer...
Well I hope you're happy... I got on here, said my piece and now I'm done...
I have to say, it is satisfying to read over your thoughts as you make them into some sort of sense on screen proofreading them for errors... But after you've read your the last sentence you realize that there were no errors... Sitting here... Now only thinking, with noting left to say... Suddenly one last thought runs through my head....
"I hope that I'm wrong...."

To Batman_1986: There is nothing unpatriotic about wanting problems in our country resolved, and although it's a little course, your points are well founded. Write blogs on the subject (not commenting at another, unrelated blog) and I'm sure you'll find people such as myself reading and commenting on them. Best of luck!

John