My life

uhh what a journey so far..and I am only just reaching 30

Guess I learnt most of my life lessons in the last two years,

I got divorced, had too many one night stands... found myself..(ish) opened up. gained some confidence, became a better parent, became a mature student fulfilling one of my goals I have held for a long time..I am doing a psychology degree.

I made a lot of new friends this year and I have learnt something from all of them, I guess my addictive personality is making me addicted to meeting new people!

I am always searching looking for oppurtunities, whereas this time last year, I would have shyed away, I wouldnt have had the ..whatever it takes to get the train in to the city and go study at degree level. even though there are many times I have thought about quitting already!! like when I left all my assignments to the last minute and other than sitting up all night quitting became my only option..(I sat up all night instead)

I discovered the positive effects and negative effects of smoking weed!

I discovered the importance of friendship

and I discovered how good I am at reading between the lines! I have always sensed peoples feelings and thoughts, not always good ones!! but I never faced them or the fact that I could... I kinda ignored it, so many times I know I am doing something I really shouldnt be doing but then I go ahead and do it anyways and then I am telling myself I told you so!!So I am just figuring out how to listen to myself!

I have become a better parent, I live for my children, everything I do is for them, I want this degree to fulfil a goal, but also so that I can provide better for my children and we dont have to rely on occasisonal maintenance payments from their ass hole of a father.

I try to make everything we do fun for them, when I was in my marriage it was a very verbally abusive one, the kids learnt its ok to hurt each others feelings, now they are learning the importance of not hurting peoples feelings!

its been a crazy journey this last couple of years, one that has made me laugh, cry, and discover myself in ways unimaginable before...

I am in an ok place right now :-)