Thank god it's bedtime!  I have done the grand total of NOTHING today!  I only left the house for five mins to go to the filling station shop next door to pick up some munchies.  I haven't showered or done anything productive, I've eaten too much, watched a load of crap TV and read A LOT of people's stories and views on here!

Strangely after a day of nothing, not speaking to anyone, even seeing anyone else, or doing anything, I'm going to bed pretty happy.  I think since I arrived here I have been pushing myself too hard to fit in and make it home straight away, so battery recharging has been great!

I'm really looking forward to work tomorrow, and long may it continue that I can say that about my new job!

I am also really pleased at how far my mental state has come.  I have spent so long in fear of leaving myself alone with my own thoughts, because they used to be destructive and bring me down.  Today, I have thought mainly about my future and planning to have fun here.

I even let myself think about my past, and I can do that too.  I guess I'm still crazy, as I'm pretty sure I'm still in love with a dead guy. but the fact I can mention him must mean I'm closer to letting him go?

I wonder if when I'm free of all my baggage if I'll suddenly want to return to the UK?  I doubt it, I mean, I can be OK over here and a mess when I go home, so I'm guessing I can be 100% over here and still wobble back there.

Anyway, for today, I'm good.  I can be alone in my head with my thoughts and keep it together.  its a big step!