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Are you mad at God?

There are times in my life when God has let me down. When I thought He would heal my granddaughter and He took her instead. When I thought He would save my marriage and He didn't. When my children walked out of church and away from their faith.

There are times I have screamed at God at the top of my lungs: "I can't take anymore!!" There was the night I was so mad at God that I left a Sunday night service and took two boxes of sleeping pills just to spite Him! (and was even madder when it didn't work. )

You know why I have gotten mad at God? Because I have a real relationship with Him. He is not just some nebulous idea in my head. He is not just some ethereal picture on a wall somewhere. He certainly isn't some beaten bloody corpse on a cross. He is my joy, my strength, my love, my life, my savior and my friend.

Because He is real to me, I have had expectations of Him. The definition of anger is unmet expectations. Since He is my savior and not Santa Claus, He will always do what is best for me, not what I want. Since He is a gentleman, He will never force my ex-husband or my children to follow Him against their will.

I've had people tell me it is a sin to be angry with God. Why? Jesus was human and showed the human emotions of fear, anger, disgust and grief. Why would He be mad at me for showing the same? If I had succeeded in taking my life, that would have been a sin. (and a mortal one at that! lol) But expressing my feelings to God (who knows them anyway) is never wrong. It is only by being honest with yourself about what you feel that enables you to turn those feelings over to God for healing.

Every time I have cried out to God "I'm mad at You!!!" I've gotten the same response. "It's OK my child, I love you anyway." Then I laugh, remembering my 3 year old stomping her foot and saying "I hate you!" Why? Because that is the exact response I gave her! I then fall on my face, apologize to Him for being a spoiled brat and thank Him for not giving up on me.

Are you mad at God today? Is there something you think He should have done that He didn't or shouldn't have done that He did? Do you think He is not being fair to you? Talk to Him about it! Pour out your emotions to the One who made them and has the power to heal them. He has big shoulders. He can take it.

Posted by debwrkn4jesus on 2007-09-19 21:11:49 | Rating:

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		He does have some pretty big shoulders doesn't he Deb?
Posted by Pauligan on 2007-09-19 21:36:50


		Yes sir, Paul!
Posted by debwrkn4jesus on 2007-09-19 23:11:22


		i try.
Posted by bubblydi on 2007-09-20 08:05:42


		I understand everything you are saying i sometime fuss at God because i feel like what want is what i need. But that is not always the case. God make good decision for me why i make poor i thank him everyday for what he has done for me and the world should do the same
Posted by Terid on 2007-09-20 09:23:53


		Di, That's all He asks. The amazing thing about God is if you take one step toward Him, He will always take 2 or 3 toward you.
Posted by debwrkn4jesus on 2007-09-20 09:53:43


		Teri, I agree! I thank God for everything - the good and the bad. Some of the worst times in my life have led to my greatest strengths.
Posted by debwrkn4jesus on 2007-09-20 09:56:00


		So are you saying it's okay to be mad at God? Cause I feel like God only created me for his personal amusement, it seems like my prayers go left unanswered, I feel like I hear him speak to me, and then it turns out not to be God but my own selfish will...or my own heart....Sometimes, I wonder if there is something Im not doing right? I try to keep the faith, but it seems like when I get closer to God that is when everything goes, wrong...but when I distance myself from him that is when things seem to be okay, is that a trick of the enemy....I grew up in the church and sometimes, I just feel like I don't get it.
Posted by bubbabeatz on 2007-09-20 15:42:50


		Thanks for this post, Deb. It was certainly a blessing to me.
Posted by naomidarlene on 2007-09-20 22:43:31


		bubbabeatz, It is ok to be mad at God. There are things in life that don't make sense. What you can't do is not get over it. You can't blame all your problems in life on God any more than you can blame them all on your parents. I try to keep the faith, but it seems like when I get closer to God that is when everything goes, wrong...but when I distance myself from him that is when things seem to be okay, is that a trick of the enemy Yes it is. I tell people straight up when they get into church to expect their life to go to hell for awhile. If the enemy can get you to give up, he's won! He is the prince of this world. He can bring tremendous pressure to bear against you but remember that this world is not our home. I wonder if what you're missing is the Holy Ghost? Find a good UPC church in your area and have them explain baptism in Jesus Name and the infilling of the Holy Ghost. "Religion" wasn't quite doing it for me either. Once I received the Holy Ghost, I had the power to overcome and that hole was filled. Good Luck and I'm here to talk.
Posted by debwrkn4jesus on 2007-09-24 19:19:41


		Thanks Naomi! I posted it for you. Deb
Posted by debwrkn4jesus on 2007-09-24 19:20:08


		This was wonderful Deb. Such sincere honesty in it. I know what it feels like to be mad at God. I argue with him regularly. I am kind of grateful that he does not argue back in an audible voice. Remember when Jacob wrestled with God in Scripture..and would not give up until God blessed him? God had to break his hip to put him down. Well, I box with God in Spirit...and he has not broken anything yet. I am still waiting. He finally just imprinted upon my heart...Sometimes the ANSWER to prayer...is a NO. God gets the blame for so much..in all reality..it is just life..and consequences of human behavior that hurt us so much. Good thing he is a good sport. I would be mad if I had to take the blame for all of the idiotic behavior of humans...and worldly tragedy. But, I see where you are coming from..I have thought too...God COULD stop all of the bad things in the world. If he did though....life would cease to exist...the good and bad.. is part of the big picture. Good post Deb. You made me think.
Posted by DifficultSoul on 2007-09-24 21:18:53


		I thought you posted it for me, but I wasn't sure. :) So...thanks! I am so thankful for you, Deb. :) I don't know you, but I do genuinely love and appreciate you. You're a blessing...I'll quote myself from earlier...I like you, Deb...keep on posting! :)
Posted by naomidarlene on 2007-09-25 15:14:50


		DS, Dontcha hate it when the answer is no? I'm still struggling with the fact that my cross was to give up my love. Nevermind that he wasn't a good man, I wanted what I wanted, not what was best for me. Your right; the good and the bad are all part of the big picture.
Posted by debwrkn4jesus on 2007-09-25 16:26:30