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To My Friend,

I wanted to let you know I cherish you. Sometimes I get hurt when I watch you struggle and I am unable to help. Or you push me aside because you think I can’t help. I love you. I wish you could see how much I truly care. This note smacks of desperation. I can smell it too. I may be a bit desperate to capture your attention, only to save you from well to be blunt, yourself.

I guess I just wanted to be heard just once before I gave up on truth. Sometimes I see things more clearly than I should. I know I cannot help the world, and to be honest I am about to give up helping the few corners I can reach, and yes my dearest friend that includes you as well.

I am tired of being kicked aside. I know of what I speak. I do not just spout off for aimless reasons. I see things. Not like dead people things. Mine is only a perspective, which can illuminate situations more clearly. I know you do not take my words seriously. You have wounded me more deeply than you know. But I still feel love for you. But as I said I am tired. You come back time after time and tell me of your Drama. I give you my words my love but it falls upon deaf ears. Sometimes my friend I am angered by your lack of fortitude. I cannot clean up your mess. This is your job. I give you the tools to fix your constant issues, but you toss them aside like a dirty Kleenex™.

I know that this is one sided. You say you love me too. But when I call with a need you are quick to answer, “I am much too busy” “ I have more pressing matters” I hear this so much it should not be a shock to you to hear me say, I too am tired. But again I cannot deny you as I stated earlier. I love you and cherish you.

I know I am destined to be the ultimate punching bag. I know my destiny is to be there for you, to pick you up when you fall down, wipe your tears when you cry, to tell you that I am there and will help with all my ability.

With this I also know that you will tell me I am right yet never listen, agree with my words, yet walk away and do nothing. You will call me and I will be there that moment, but in turn you will not come for me when I ask of you.

Amazing, even knowing these truest of truths.

I still love you.