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Stuck

I am very grateful to be employed. However, I am stuck. And the stuck worked for a while when things were really in crisis - and it works now. But less than before. As the economy eases up slightly, I involuntarily accumulate hope and desire to change my situation. But when you have a problem being a good interviewee in the best of times, you will be wiped out by the professional cool folks in the worst of times. So many people are unemployed now despite being charming, competent, intelligent, etc. They are unemployed because of bad breaks. And that makes them very hirable. More hirable than an awkward guy whose palms sweat when he is nervous.

Anyway, my situation now entails working at a law firm. As a non-lawyer at a law firm, there is not much advancement and you are out of the mainstream of things. I've never worked at a place where I was involved in the core product or delivery of service. But at a law firm, the law degree stands between you and relating well to the lawyers. They are a different breed attorneys are. Some nice, some not. Probably not unlike other industries. But they are exacting and precise and always, I feel, believe themselves to be the experts on anything. They are professionals experts - they have to know as much about garage doors as the garage door repairman or installer when their client's family member is killed by one. But they are also socially stunted. POINT BEING - this isn't the greatest job (I know, what is) but I'm in my own shoes so... I'd love something different. What? I've never been able to answer that. I'd go from one extreme such as newscasting and news writing to being a detective or driving around the truck that carried dead people; I'd work a back hoe for a couple months and be happy. I'd like to work as a bartender for a little bit. Also would love to drive the el train for a spell. It would be fun to drive a cab for a short period of time during the winter months. I have a million ideas.

It's almost like the recession gave me a reprieve from having to think about it. Being stuck was useful. Maybe being in prison is the same thing - what are you going to do about it: you are where you are. But now things are changing - granted no one seems to be getting new jobs, but things are seeming to change. And that awakens the demons.

And I am trying to pay off my wife's wedding band and the drip drip of my salary is not providing that huge pay day to wipe it out. But I go back to saying: I AM GRATEFUL TO BE EMPLOYED. Thank you.

Onward.

Posted by davepajamas on 2009-07-23 19:06:55 | Rating: