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I am a firm believer that texting should be for things like, "be there in ten minutes" or "Plane has been delayed" But Crafty and I have been writing whole paragraphs, novellas, to each other. It's all too hard to say on the phone or in person. We are so comfortable around each other and yet so scared....
An excerpt from our back and forth texting before Rocket Scientist came to pick me up. We were discussing his potential day off on sunday.
C: Lunch at birds on the patio, a lil shopping on melrose, drinks at edendale. That sounds nice.
Me: To tell you the truth, just spending time with you, doing anything at all, sounds nice
C:Thank you. Drinking 40's in compton
Me: I am assuming of course that you meant with me....If not, consider this to be an awkward silence
C: Oh, I'm sorry. Doing that with my roomie. Hahahaha. Duh. Yes you!
Me: Well you never know. You are so ambivalent about me...
C: Oh Gawd.
Me: heh heh. Fight it tooth and nail, baby. But I am way too awesome to let go!
C: Youuuuu
Me: Please. You know it. If you let me slip through your fingers you would be kicking yourself for the rest of your miserable life
C: Just moving slow
Me: I know. It's good. I need it too. And being the impetuous jump right in kind of girl I am, it's good some one has some sense
Me: Cuz I like you a lot
Me: Like a LOT. We're talking a whole walmart parking lot
C: Don't fear. I like you too. As I said slow and easy. I must
Me: Hmph. Slow and easy. That is a totally new concept for me. Sometimes I mistake slow and easy for indifference.
C: I used to do the same thing. Want to make sure that I am ready to be...me. And able to give what a woman like you deserves
Me: Okay. I respect and appreciate it. but I feel like I am trying to hold back a team of wild horses
C: Don't hold back. I'm just making sure that we are eye to eye and ear to ear. By moving slowly, i think I can get my head straight. I have been a "rambling man" for a while and want to make sure that I am worth you. Understand? Not trying to sound shifty. Being honest
Me: Rambling man. That makes me nervous
C: LA has been tough for me until recently. A lot of shit with the girl. I am now comfortable in my own shoes and feel stability for the first time in a while. I really like you and am trying to be a MAN in this situation. Ya know.
Me: Kinda. That is why I took my dating hiatus. I wanted to be whole in myself instead of looking for someone to heal me. But I am in a good place now. However, I know that one untrustworthy person could send me into a dark place
C: You are in my head! And honestly that is weird and cool and scary and awesome and etc....
Me: I know. I have to go now. We'll finish this later?
I got in very late. We never finished. The moment has past and I doubt we will ever finshed. But I swooned when he said he wanted "to be a MAN in this situation". I hope he means it. I am ready for a real man.
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Posted by datingretard on 2008-02-01 05:32:14 | Rating: | Views: 118
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