Thoughts.com Blogs - The End for a Beginning

When I started this blog six weeks ago, I didn't know what to expect. I'll tell you this, though. I didn't expect Crafty.

After our conversation, I really thought about everything he had said. And in the end, i realized that no matter how scared I was, it was unfair to keep seeing other people if my heart was truly in this. And I also realized how much it hurt him for me to continue my dates. The last thing in the world I would ever want to do is hurt him. So I sent him this email

Alright.
Don’t be scared.
I’ve removed my match.com profile
I’ve cancelled all my upcoming dates
I won’t accept any future dates
I don’t expect anything from you in return.
I just want to be honest with you.
I don’t know where this is going.
I don’t have any expectations.
But I do know that I don’t want to see any one else but you.
And I don’t want you to feel like I am on a “hunt”
I like you. You’re pretty spectacular.
It scares the shit out of me!

He responded with:

I'm glad that you have done so.
I think we are going to be alright. I hope that you feel the same....

I honestly don't know if this is the "right" decision, but it feels good to me. I am scared of falling in too deeply and not having my feelings returned. I am scared of missing out on someone who may be better suited to me. I am scared of letting anyone in to hurt me the way I have been hurt before. But I trust him. And I am willing to try.

Sigh. Big, scared, but optimistic, SIGH....