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Why is it that when you really want something, it seems to be the most unattainable thing in the world?And why does life never turn out how you thought or wanted it would work out?
Teachers and peers ask you or at least make you think about where you see yourself in 1, 5, 10, 20 years time and you try to imagine yourself in that time frame.
I know for a fact, that 5 years ago I would have said that I would see myself in University, in a relationship perhaps and to have everything in my life - just right. Five years on and I'm the complete other end of the spectrum - I find myself being everything that I didn't want or think myself to be. Maybe it's not necessarily a bad thing.
Sometimes, I look around at some of my old school friends and see what they have become, how different they are to how I used to know them and in some cases I wonder how on earth we were ever friends at all.
I don't think I've changed all that much, but I know that I have. I talk to younger people than myself and see everything that I used to be in them and wonder how they will change after a few years.
I suppose, really I just feel like I haven't done anything worthwhile with my time. I wonder if I'm even capable? It feels like I'm trying to discover something about myself that isn't really there - something that will make me feel like me. The stupid thing is, that I know there is nothing else to be found out. Life is sitting there right in front of me, but theres a gate of steel standing before it and I have to find a way to break a way through it.
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Posted by darksoul1000 on 2007-10-27 12:00:50 | Rating: | Views: 70
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