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I've decided that I can't carrying on living my life the way I am now. It feels as though I am waiting for something to just appear and change everything for me, but I'm not - that's just how it feels. Besides, that isn't the way to live - and it's most certainly not the way I want to live anymore.
Lately, I've been filled with a lot more optimism than is usual for me. I'm normally a realist to the core, even bordering on pessimistic on occasion. I just feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and inside I feel free as a bird, like I have no responsibilities or anything to tie me down - and thats great, but what frustrates me is not knowing what to do next. But then, I suppose that could be deemed as the best part about it all.
Am I happy though? No, not yet. But thats the ultimate goal for everybody isn't it? To find complete and utter happiness - I know that's not possible though. Nobody can be super happy all the time, not when there is so much that can easily pull you down again.
But life is what you make it and sadly, I'm just beginning to realise that. I suppose, before now I've just been over-whelmed and dissillusioned with what 'hasn't happened and all the dissapointment that comes along with it - but I really don't want to be in that rut anymore.
In fact, I'm going to say it right now - I don't ever want to be that way ever again, I will never be that way again and will do anything to never be that way again. |
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Posted by darksoul1000 on 2008-07-20 11:19:19 | Rating: | Views: 20
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hi!
wow!
this must be ver exciting for you! being at a cross-roads in your life can be a scarey thing - but when the possibilities are endless it can be mind-boggling too.
i say go with the flow, enjoy your contentment and keep your eyes peeled for the right opportunity to take you in the direction you want to go.
GOOD LUCK!!
:)
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Posted by badlydrawnstickman
on 2008-07-20 13:23:27
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