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As the title states I am feeling very overwhelmed with my life right now.
For starters, I was helping my mother take care of my grandmother since right after Thanksgiving (little did we know that she wasn't going to bounce back this time). Grandma had lung cancer, and if you have the slightest knowledge of the disease then you would agree with me that my grandma was a miracle. The average rate of survival for someone with stage 3 cancer is only about 10% (that's for a patients 5 year survival). Grandma made it 4 months short of 6 years. But, back to my point here.... so we were taking care of her and then the end finally came. Dealing with death is not easy no matter who it is that you lose, but the closer a person is to you the harder it is. I've been dealing with this in my own way.... and to add to this, I have been dealing with problems at work. The problem that when I get stressed out about one thing that other areas of my life suffer. That is kind of what is happening right now. I have tried not to let my personal stuff interfere with my work, but unfortunately it has. I find myself not being productive like I would hope to be and I have found that I am starting to make a lot of stupid mistakes. It's times like this that make me wonder if I'm doing the right thing with my life right now. For the most part I don't feel stimulated at work... it feels like I come in and do the same thing day after day. I need excitement and variety. I have occassionally been looking around just to see what else is out there, but with Michigan's economy the way it is, there's not a whole lot of anything to be had right now.
Things don't stop at work though.... I am having issues with my house right now as well. I believe that I have a burst pipe underground, but until the snow melts and the ground thaws a little I can't do anything about it, which in the meantime means that I have no water at my house. I'm so frustrated by this!!! I can't even live in my own house! I've been staying with my boyfriend for the last 3 weeks because of it. Don't get me wrong... I love spending time with him and his family, but this is getting old, real quick. I just want my life back. I feel like I am being punished for some reason. Things in my life were going soooo well, and then in a matter of a few months my world has been turned around. I'm sure I'll come out of this fine.... I have in the past.... I just don't know what to do to make right now better.
I'm sorry for sounding all emo and stuff... but I just thought that getting my feelings down in writing would make me feel a little better, and it has.
Thanks for reading!
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Posted by dani01 on 2008-02-07 11:07:57 | Rating: | Views: 32
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