Well,we survived New Years at W @ C's Drank too much,didnt eat enough. I finally feel a little bit more on the normal side today,if there  is any such thing.  S is doing fine the aggressive treatment the Drs gave him worked well.He came hom and is doing fine.T said now she cant keep him from bouncing off the walls.So you see he's a normal 2 year old again. I get the thrill of babysitting for him while T takes B to the hospital.We shall see if I survive this. Hes a handful for this ole body to deal with !! My plans for the day are shot. Oh well. Thats my life.
   More later have to leave for now. So much yet to say ,Perhaps once I get it all out, I will be able to go forward with my life.I dont have much of one,but I am alive. The heartbreak someday will end, sooner than later i hope.
But I know it has to start  with me, I just dont know where to begin.Its always on my mind,my head spinning like a top. I suppose you start at the beginning.So long ago.I suppose you have to talk about it and get it all out. Maybe that is where I start. At the beginning.    I am not complaining as many would think,just stating fact.
 I am not feeling sorry for myself ,many have gone through more than I and are living a full life.
 That quick,a phone call,can make me change my mind .Wondering if its a good idea to put it all out there.I just dont know.
The confusion haunts me.Going to T's. I will be back later,Its becoming a habit.