Wensday,May,7,2008

        Today i turned in my note book to my mentor andi dint think nothing about what i put in it and when i frist ment her she siad what ever you put in this note book noody else will see it but me ok and i was cool with that bacuase my teacher had shown the school police officer ,and then today i gave the note book to her ok and about two three weeks ago i had told the school officer that my friend was cutting and i had put in the book that i felt really bad for telling on her ,but i did it cuz i care about her and whatever and then  i know im being caled up to the office and im like oh god what did i do now and the worst thoughts are going through my head and i dont know wht to think at this point and im flipping out ok and sure enough i walk back to the office and the school officer is standing in the office and im like oh shit i hope im not going in that office and guess what i went in that office and my heart is in my throut and so i sit down and im like why am i here and she was like what is this note about and im like what note and it was about that i wanted to cut and all that and how i felt so bad for teing on my friend and i was like well where did you git that and she was like thats not the point and i was like i want to know where it came from and i remmbered that i gave my mentor my note book and i was like now i remmber my note book that i gave to her and the officer was like if you start cutting againg you know what is going to happend right and i was like yes i know and she was like what would happen i had siad ''that i would be backeracked againg and i would posible be in there for longer then three days and i didnt want to go back their and it just makes me so mad that i know that i did something to make some one so mad cuz my friends sister in law was gitting in my face abot it and was like its none of your bissniss what she is doing and stay out of it and all that or whatever  and i just feel so bad i know i should feel better but i dont and i just wan to feel a razor going through my skin i know it doesnt make anthing better ,but it makes me feel that i can do anthing i set my mind to and just it makes it all seem so much better and all the bad things go away .