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Can't say I'm sad to see you go

I don't have the fucking time, energy, or stamina (in all aspects) to be in a relationship right now, and neither do you! Why do you have just a hard time grasping that I'm sick of this, I'm sick of lying to people, and more than anything... that I'm sick of you? I just want things to be the way they're supposed to be. I want to be just the babysitter. I want to sleep in the extra bed instead in Jaylee's room of yours.

In the time where you suddenly changed from asshole to romantic, I did the exact opposite. So I'm sorry that now that I've let go and moved on, you've found room in your heart for me. I'm sorry that now that I'm done, you're ready to date. Mostly I'm sorry that now that you actually give a shit... I don't.

I don't have room in my heart, life, or schedule for a "lover," or a boyfriend. I'm sorry that I let this go on, and advance as far as it did. You weren't supposed to fall for me. You weren't supposed to care about me. You were just supposed to fill my emptiness and make it easier to move on.

Someday you'll find someone who can fulfill you. I just got tired of waiting for you.

I'm really, truly sorry. My heart is still in other places, in other hands...