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Flashback
I just had a flashback. A flashback to a time when I was a little girl. I remember it vividly now as if I had always remembered this. It's too awkward to talk to anyone about but I do need to share. Tonight I walked past the door of my father reading my little sister a bedtime story. It......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-23 21:43:59 | Rating:

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Green green green
Breathing in I can feel the familiar sensation, the pure relief of knowing exactly what is to come. Filled to the top with relaxation, I am invincible. Watching things in different eyes enjoying the moment as well as simple......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-17 00:30:08 | Rating:

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Stay away from me
To my best friend and more than that Beautiful austere classic and clean You didn’t get a fighting chance Mild risible intelligent and wise You’re prospect never looked good But I must warn you, go no further Do not pursue this catastrophe Fear for your life......Read More

Posted on: 2009-07-14 23:18:54 | Rating:

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what wants me to fail so badly?
I'm sad. Not like my cat died sad but my mom died sad. No one is dead though. And there is no comprehendable reason as to why I am sad I just am. Which leads me to beleive that its the medication. I started a new one. risper something. Its an anti ocd. I constantly taste iron in my mouth now but......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-25 19:51:35 | Rating:

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I AM
I am hideous. I am ugly. I am plain. I am tolerable. I am cute. I am pretty. I am gorgeous. I am alluring. I am stunning. The body can change over time. But it is what is on the inside that counts and the inside that never changes. You can re-invent yourself a million......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-18 21:59:23 | Rating:

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Love?
What is love? I dont know. But I'll tell you what I'm thinking and you can decide for yourself. Being severly ocd and just coming out of depression, I've got my share of problems. But you see, this boy, this boy this boy. We have played little games for nearly three years that neither of us admit......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-12 22:15:05 | Rating:

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april 22
"Numbness, that was the supposed solution to her problems. A feeling of being whitewashed dominates her mind. Now that the depression has lifted, thanks to medication, she is left with nothing. Now she doesn’t even have sadness to call her own. As the depression lifted, she began to......Read More

Posted on: 2009-04-22 20:10:28 | Rating:

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Spring Break
There are a thousand holes driven into my soul, My mind is flooded with compunction and despair Missing a beat, my heart weeps, My body, is a glasshouse with too many cracks to be beautiful Your soul, is smooth Your mind is righteous Beating fully, your heart is pure Your......Read More

Posted on: 2009-03-22 19:13:05 | Rating:

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March 12
"The metallic orange of his body reflects light as it showers over him. A hundred tiny muscles wrk overtime just over one simple movement. Nothing can escape the disturbance when one thing changes. If the light falters, if he moves in the slightest way, if the water ripples. The Universe......Read More

Posted on: 2009-03-12 20:06:37 | Rating:

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March 11th Explicit Content
It's been a few days since I last cut myself. Therapy and frequent phsyciatrists appointments can't break this addiction alone. Especially after its been going on for over a ...Read More