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I have a major headache this morning or afternoon I guess. The only reason I can give to explain it away is that I stayed up way too late last night, at least for me. My parents called me from their little halloween party at 11:30 and it's a darn good thing that I'm a light sleeper or else I wouldn't have been able to hear the phone all the way in my parent's room. I'm sure I looked hilarious, I was lying on my bed with the lights still on, fully clothed, asleep and all of a sudden I jerked awake by the ring ring of the phone and shot out of my bed across the hall to my parents room where I lept across their giant bed and grabbed the phone in the nick of time.
My dad was drunk and maybe if I wasn't so tired I would've laughed at him. It's a good thing that they called me when they did because in a half an hour it would've been past my curfew and they would've had to walk home.
I can't really report anything on today because it hasn't really started yet, I didn't wake up until 9:30-10ish and I still haven't taken a shower, but don't worry, I don't smell or anything. My mom would've said something if I did.
For the rest of the day my schedual is filled with obligations, obligations to myself and to others. For me, I have a ton of math and english homework and I'm reading this book called City of Bones (it's fabulous by the way if you're interested in the otherworldly kind of thing, like Harry Potter) that I would like to finish soon because I'm already reading another book called Pride and Prejudice and Zombies(hilarious). I also really need to finish my story, but I probably won't do that today.
And as for my obligations to other people, last summer I went on this mission trip with my friend's youth group, we went to San Francisco and helped out with the homeless and did a little day care thing with another church. It was probably the most terrifying thing I have ever done in my life because I'm not Christian or anything. I'm not even sure if I believe in God. It's stupid though because people say that since I haven't excepted Jesus Christ into my heart I'm an athiest. My mom brought up a good point when I mentioned this to her, she said that she didn't think there was such a thing as an athiest because we all have to believe in something, and I agree with her. I mean I may not believe in the bible or God or good vs. evil or anything like that, but I do believe that, that doesn't make me a bad person.
Anyways back to my obligations, since I went on that mission trip I now feel like I have to go to this youth group every Sunday called Opus and I don't really want to. Let's face it, I hate the whole concept of worship, I just feel belittled by it. "I don't wanna be a sheep!" Haha, I've always wanted to say that.

Posted by creativewritingninja on 2009-10-26 22:27:27 | Rating: