Hello all,

So i'm beginning to think that love isn't real..atleast not the love that you see in movies or hear about. I'm in love with the girl i'm dating and even though we're in love..the idea of love doesn't make anything better in our relationship. mainly because of her not being capable going outside the box with anything. She only does what makes her happy and usually only cares about what makes her happy to..there are times when she is thoughtful to other people and ignores her personal feelings toward something to make another person happy, but most of those times are on birthdays or holidays. I can't even talk to her about these problems cause she will get mad..according to her I'm allowed to talk to her about the things that bother me, but she is still going to get mad because I make HER feel like shit? WTF and that my friends is how something gets flipped right around on me. I'm just so tired of missing that part of our relationship. I understand she has some problems down there and when that time of the month comes around she isn't wanting to, which is fine, but i dont just miss out on a week ..i miss out on months of doing anything intimate with her. We barely REALLY make out, not like we used to ...I remember how it was in the beginning and i want it to be like that again..we would make out for hours on the front porch during the summer. She use to not care where we did things...for instance we could do things at night in her car right in front of my house with the car running, but now if everythign isn't just right we won't do anything. I was promised that we would do something like 2 1/2 weeks ago..and it still hasn't happened. If I never mentioned anything, I could almost guarantee that we would probably go around a year without doing anything intimate or even really make out. I try to be romantic, like cooking dinner for her, or just saying sweet things to her, but i dont really think those things really matter in her mind on our intimacy side. She sees them as nice gestures and thanks me for them and that's the end of it. I just feel like i'm trying so hard to keep that side of our relationship alive it's making our friendship side not so good, but what do you have without an intimacy side? A fucking friendship and that is not what this is suppose to be!