I'm a good spy.  A little while ago I found M on facebook and sent a friend request.  I had my doubts that he'd add me... but also wondered if he might want to reject the request but feel... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-01 08:11:23
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Well, it seems to me that its a while now since I last blogged... seems time again.  My biggest concern today is coffee.  I'm pretty much out - I have enough for one more very weak... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-04 21:43:20
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I just worked out a great way to ruin a conversation.... well, to be fair I've worked it out before so my former statement doesn't read exactly true.... what I should've said is "I just... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-05 08:28:29
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I went to a small Catholic primary school - just over 100 students.  I guess 'cause it was so small and 'cause it was Catholic teachers noticed when kids had no friends and that's why they... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-05 18:17:01
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Today I am wondering if I could ever go back to a normal job again... It's 15 minutes to midday and here I am sitting in front of the computer in my pyjamas and slippers with coffee number 2. ... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-06 22:21:57
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I'm getting better at sleeping.  There's still a lot of room for improvement...  I think on the bad nights it usually starts with my thinking in unhelpful ways right before dropping... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-07 20:26:53
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Sometimes I just get online and I don't know what I want.  Nothing to check - checked my email at least 50 times today, checked facebook about 30, checked the forums, wrote a blog and googled... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-08 09:11:56
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All my life they have been telling me I NEED to talk more, to socialize more - to be more like other people... like normal people.  All my life I have felt like they all need to shut up more... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-08 20:25:48
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I've just started bmx racing.  Yep, I'm an adult.  Isn't that where you ride a kid's bike?  Yep, I guess... so what?  I used to sit at my desk at work every day drowning in... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-11 08:37:48
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I saw something written here on thoughts recently and its been bugging me.  I read some responses to a survey where one of the questions was who acts more mature on here - older or younger... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-12 22:13:51
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Sometimes I say dumb things or I do dumb things and when I realise what I've just done/said I feel embarassed.  And, that feeling follows me relentlessly.  I try to drown it out with... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-14 08:51:04
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You know how it is when there's something on your mind - you need to do something about it but you don't really wanna poke it? That's how it is for me today. I went back to court again. What a... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-20 09:17:16
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I feel like I'm coming to terms with things.... things being rejection by old friends and acquantances I haven't seen in a while.  Facebook in particular has encouraged me to dip my toe in the... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-20 20:15:49
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Drinking coffee again Trying to chase the aftertaste of the last one down Or maybe the taste of regret Or guilt Or shame Or maybe the taste of emptiness Embittered by the agony Of... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-21 23:15:34
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When I'm a customer in a store and I get treated badly by the people who work there its usually a given I'm going to find someone else who can provide the product/service without the bad... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-22 20:30:17
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Okay... well... not much happened today. Was kinda hoping to catch up with one or two people properly but things didn't work out that way. Hmmm... makes me feel like the day has been uneventful.... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-24 09:44:38
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when the truth walks away everybody stays 'cause the truth about the world is that crime does pay so if you walk away who is gonna stay? 'cause I'd like to make the world a better... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-25 05:56:27
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I just got off the phone to my best friend.  He left a message on my phone yesterday and I just called him back.  I asked him how long he's been back in the country and he told me five... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-26 07:13:11
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Last night I woke up all night.  When my alarm went of this morning I was soooo tired.  I hit "snooze".... every 5 minutes for half an hour.  Then I lay there... I tried to... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-26 20:13:29
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I asked for a mug.  She handed me a thimble and a stern look.  I apologised again.  She walked away. Carefully I dropped a pinch of coffee and a pinch of sugar into the thimble... Read More
Posted by: crashing_down on 2008-05-28 08:01:07
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