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Let the countdown begin...

After today, I have 10 days left on this deployment.  I'll be heading home and hopefully will be able to patch things up with my wife.

I talked to her last night for about 2 hours.  We talked about a lot of the things I did to her.  I kept telling her how sorry I was for everything and how I still love her.  I want to be with her so bad.  Sadly, she doesn't know if she wants to be with me anymore.

We agreed that when I get home, I'll get my own apartment.  We'll still see each other and date and stuff.  At least that's what she said.  I'm afraid that it might not happen, but we'll have to wait and see. At least I know what is going to happen when I get back.  For a while, I was so frustrated and confused because I didn't know if I was going to be staying with her or not.  Now I know. 

I know that she needs space and time to forgive me for a lot of what I did.  I hope that one day she will. (Sooner rather than later of course).  But I know that I need to give her time to heal and I need the time myself to show her that I am truly changing.  I think in the end, we'll be okay.  I will be able to be a better husband to her and a better father to my daughter. 

I hope I can stay optimistic about all of this.  Sometimes I'll get depressed about it and that's not what I want.  I want to stay happy and keep thinking that everything is going to be okay. 


....why is love so hard to figure out....?

Posted by crash413 on 2007-11-20 08:32:09 | Rating: n/a | Views: 90


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Posted by
Wayne
on 2007-11-20 08:39:45
 
Stay Safe !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
 

Posted by
atomsmistress1743
on 2007-11-20 09:05:44
 
As a war zone photographer, I have been to the same shit-holes you have been in and breathed the same talcum-powder air. I've smelled the cordite after a battle and felt the after effects of adrenaline high, the crash. It's rough being deployed, but you are the most deserving of overall respect. You protected me when the shit went sideways and rounds were everywhere. You keep me safe at night, and I know with you out there,I have no worries. Thank you, I will always be a fan.
 
 

Posted by
m00nRaker
on 2007-11-20 09:56:11
 
Love relationship can be complicated at times and mostly subjective. I wish you good luck and work it out. Don't reach the stage of losing it (family) then realizing how dear it means to you.
 
 

Posted by
Acre
on 2007-11-21 19:56:05
 
Keep in mind that with your daughter, you will always have a tie to this woman and will always have a way to impress her and show her how you've changed just in being a great father.
Be careful on your way home! And don't forget all about telling us how things with your wife goes.
 
 


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