Hi there, i'm Amanda. I used to wish my life to be over as well when i was younger. I even tried to kill myself when i was 14, and i was a cutter. I know life seems hard right now, and it sounds hard too, but it will get better. Trust me, i had a terrible childhood and bad things happen to me over and over, but now i'm engaged and we have a 5 year old son and i'm as happy as i could be. Actually i got pregnant when i was 15 and right away i quit cutting and i realized that that was just wrong of me to do to myself. I didn't believe it before, but i believe this now....i'm am worth something...to myself, my fiance, and especially my son. I'm so sorry about your stepmom and i hope she pulls through this. Good luck with your band as well. And for the ex now, just take your time getting over him and soon enough you'll find someone new and wonderful to make you feel happy and satisfied...i know, i went through the same exact thing. Good luck with you and cheer up! bye. xoxo