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Here goes nothing....
I've always been nervous about posting entries on a blogging site, since airing out my dirty laundry for the whole world wide web to see doesn't necessarily sound appealing to me. OK, in a way it does, and in a way it doesn't. That's why I decided to stay anonymous and not post......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-11 10:03:33 | Rating:

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Here goes nothing... (Pt. 2)
I haven't posted a new entry in two days--not because I haven't had the time, but because I'm still new to this blogging site and was feeling nervous. I mean, I've posted blogs on other sites before, but those were only viewable by friends of mine. I can even make a preferred......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-13 16:30:39 | Rating:

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Path of self-destruction
Though, like I said in my last entry, I don't consider myself to be an alcoholic--I do consider myself to be on a path of self-destruction. It hasn't gotten extreme yet. I'm still at the start of the path. I've promised and promised and promised to myself that I'd......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-15 19:34:54 | Rating:

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What does it mean to be a man?
That's a question I sometimes ponder, being that I don't fit the stereotype of your standard male. I don't watch sports, I don't act tough, I don't try to pick fights with people, and I'm ultra-concerned about the way my hair looks. I'm probably one of the few heterosexual......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-18 11:10:32 | Rating:

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How to kick the office blues?
Just thought I'd toss that question out there, since those blues are kicking in right now. That's not to say I have an especially boring job. As a matter of fact, this workplace is a lot more fun than many of the other employers I've worked for in the last 4 years. It's a......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-19 13:45:22 | Rating:

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Looks or personality?
Here's the deal: I have a girlfriend who I've been dating for almost 9 months. This is honestly the most content I've ever felt in a relationship. Of course, you can argue that I'm comparing it to my other so-called relationships in the pasts. Some of them can't......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-21 12:14:02 | Rating:

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Another night of drunken madness
OK, perhaps the title makes my night sound a tad more exciting than it really was. What can I say? I'm an aspiring writer. I have the tendency to overstate. Anyway, last night I was at Coyote Ugly (surprise, surprise). Luckily, the brunette bartender from......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-22 11:29:26 | Rating:

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A semi-unhappy Memorial Day weekend
OK...I am, for lack of a better term, pissed off right now. For one thing, my fucking computer crashed on me when I was originally writing this entry. And, as you can probably gather from the title, I didn't have the greatest holiday weekend. Normally, when I return to work......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-26 14:05:44 | Rating:

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Being of mixed race
Since I'm using this blog as sort of an alternative to professional counseling, I will use this opportunity to vent about my issues regarding my nationality. Here's the thing: My father is a Russian/Hungarian Jew and my mother is Filipino. I don't know how to say this without......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-28 13:06:28 | Rating:

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