Pretending not to notice my life falling down
I hold on to what I never had
Hiding behing my outer image
Holding inside what I cant seem to express
keeping my pain inside where noone can see, what hurts me so bad and blinds me
I know i should feel blessed
Yet I always ruin it
Not knowing what direction or which path to take kills me like no other
The remains of my mistakes have taken over me
Taunting, teasing, and making me insecure
I try not to act as though im distressed
Yet my thoughts start to take over my actions
I want to be happy, I want to feel love
My mind makes it all up
I cant take it any longer
I've detached from what I once was
I just want my way back
I want my life, my happiness, my hopes back with me to stay
Pills arent forever, they cant make me change
I need to find my direction
My direction to where I belong