I decided I am going to really lose weight WITH EFFORT this time...

before, i would think my weight would just magically drop since i got off antidepressants...

I used to think by doing a little bit of exercise, i can lose weight and still keep the same diet...

My diet is of an 8 yr old....consisting of fast foods, desserts, sodas and take out...I am really addicted to food...

I am tired of complaining how fat i am....

my problem is...i have to put effort into it instead of getting depressed with how i look...

and i know a chunk of it is, diet...

so my friend told me about his grocery chain that has been poppin up all over town called Fresh n' Easy...

The fruits/veggies there are pretty cheap and i started to incorportate those in my diet....

i still get very very hungry eating only those so i would eat a can of tuna....or am thinking of buying a Whey protein to combat the hunger...

and on top of my diet...do at least 1 hr of exercise...

i mean, its true...the secret to weight loss is not some magical pill....u really have to sacrifice the fatty foods that taste oh-so good....

i dont believe in depriving urself so i think its OK to have something sweet, like a piece of cake or ice cream once in awhile...but make sure u work it off...

so far...i have been incorporating weight training and ab work to my exercise routine...i'll also add 30 minute of elliptical for my cardio.....

i would really love to drop 40 lbs..but if i just lose the fat and mostly be muscle...then 20 is good enough.........

i wanna fit in my size 5's again.......

i wanna be a 'small' in tops again...

i have so many clothes i could not wear because of my 40 lb weight gain in the last 2 yrs.......

it was rapid..but nursing school and antidepressants really took a toll on me...along with eating fatty foods and having a boyfriend...

my weight gain is part of the reason y im depressed as well...i never wanna go out to clubs with friends....i even hate going to the mall, surrounded by everyone wearing the clothes i used to wear....

now all i wear is sweats...and the color black...i LOOK depressing.

i miss taking pictures and actually looking good in them.....i hate having to always hide my gut behind my huge purse...

i hate all these purple stretch marks developing in my abdomen...

i am only 24!!! i never imagined this could happen to me but i brought it upon myself.......

now its time to take direction and really work on my body...

if i can make it through nursing school....i can get through this...

i love myself and i have to put effort in myself...

i miss my confidence...

i hate having to think people r always looking at me thinking how fat i am........

i hate having to contour my face to look slimmer...

im tired of dreaming and fantasizing about it...

i want it to be a reality...

millions of people can do it...even without surgery..

its all about will-power and determination....

and importantly...i have to do this for my health...

my cholesterol is extremely high...i dont want to die of CAD in my 30s...

i wanna experience being married and being a mom...

i have a family history of diabetes type 2, colon cancer and dying of stroke/heart attack

...and i dont want to be suffering from that.