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| That melancholy feeling comes again...
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Most days I think I'm doing fine. I"m not worried about the fact that I'm 21, my friends are all dating, engaged or married and I still have no one. I don't worry that I have minimal amounts of money and absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life after collge [in a year]. Most days I dont worry that I'm not sure what I want out of life or that I'm terrified I'll never figure it out.
Other days....that's all I can think about. Worry about. Worrying about everything.
Today is one of those days.
Mostly today its the alone issue. It is coming increasingly harder to accept the fact that I have had minimal serious relationships in my life. I would say 2. Furthermore is the fact that I have no prospects, no one to flirt with on regular occasions, not even a fall back booty-call [not that i would, but theres not even a possiblity].
I try not to stress myself out about this, but sometimes it just hurts. I always keep my happy face on, tell people it doesn't bother me, smile when another friend gets engaged and congratulate secret crushes when they get married.
I like to think my person is out there. Sometimes I wonder how I will ever meet him becuase i feel stuck in such a rut.
Someday...
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Posted by chromebubbles on 2008-07-24 23:29:13 | Rating: | Views: 16
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