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This is my first blog ever so I’m winging it. I guess I should introduce myself. My name is Chrissy and I am a dieter…. hmm sounds kinda like Im admitting to an addiction. Maybe I should say my name is Chrissy and I am an eater…..yeah that’s a little better. I have struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember. In high school I was always a little more “filled out” than the other girls and when I was 17 I suffered from bulemia. Boy did I bounce back from that 3 fold. I have given birth twice and also had two c-sections. So yes I have 4 children. I am 27 as of this Thursday (YAY ME). After the birth of my last child in 2006 it is safe to say I got lazy. I let my body go, ate what I wanted, when I wanted, how I wanted. It caught up to me so much that I didnt even like leaving my house, not even to go outside in the yard. I tried dieting on my own with no luck. I have the willpower of a doughnut. So I called in the professionals…no not the people with the white coats…although a vacation would be nice. I went to a weight management doctor two weeks ago. She took my weight (239) and told me we were going to go on an aggressive diet and exercise plan because I am borderline diabetic AND my cholesterol is screaming heartattack by age 28.
Sitting in that office and going over the diet was fine. I was revved up and ready to do this. I am to have:
1/2 cup egg beaters for breakfast
1 protein shake
a salad and chicken or turkey
1 protein shake
salad/apple/chicken or turkey
protein bar
plus cardio and strength training 4 times a week.
I looked at it as I do anything else… I got this in the bag.
That was two weeks ago. Let me tell you…I DONT got this in the bag.
When you go from eating pizza and steak and sodas and bread and pasta to lettuce turkey water and protein shakes….its not easy. I tell you I feel sorry for the first pizza guy that comes to my door by mistake. Poor guy will probably leave minus an arm.
I find myself completely exhausted and barely able to function. I talked to the doctor and she gave me a medicine to increase my metabolism. She told me dont take this pill after 11am or you wont be able to sleep its that strong. Apparently she has never met anyone with my laziness factor. I can take that pill and 3 hours later be ready for bed.
As for the exercise…(insert unladylike snort here). I had to go out and buy a treadmill since I have small children and its pretty cold outside. Not a problem…..problem is 10 minutes on it going 3.0mph I thought someone lit my lungs on fire and then spun me around in circles. Nobody bothered to inform me that my first few weeks I would feel like I was on a tilt a world ride, my legs would turn into jello and breathing would be almost as painful as natural childbirth. Here I am thinking Im dying and I call my doctor who had the nerve to laugh at me and tell me to keep trying…. her exact words “Pain means you are exerting……keep up the good work.” I swear if that woman was infront of me when she said that I would have shoved the treadmill down her throat.
I handle a lot of things. I am a wife, mother, sister, lover, friend, nurse, nanny, and I am a maid. Most of all I am a dieter. I am someone who struggles so hard daily to get back into shape that I want to cry and give up. Fortunately, I am stubborn and pig headed. I see this diet as a challenge and I wont let it make me look like a failure or fool.
Thanks for reading the sillyness that is me. I needed a vent and this is actually very relaxing.
Til tomorrow
Chrissy
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Posted by chper04 on 2008-03-24 10:41:48 | Rating: | Views: 111
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Oh Chrissy welcome!! I have struggled with my weight also. I am 44 and now at a healthy weight(though I could still lose a little more weight). The treadmill is your friend, I promise. Advice from a person who has been there. Drink water...yuck I know! I am a sweet tea addict. I gave up my addiction to sweet tea and now drink lots of water(I drink unsweet tea with sweet and low for supper only). It is easier if you buy water in bottles and refill them. Put them in the frige for anytime you need a drink. Keep a bottle of water in your hand at all times, or at least close by. We don't know it but sometimes when we think we are hungry, we are thirsty. Next..Stay on a routine of eating the exact same meals at the exact same times every day. If you get weak, don't eat..drink water. Yuck I know but it works. Next schedule that treadmill every single day. Your life depends on this Chrissy. You have a doctor helping you, something I never had. You can do this. Get on that treadmill, turn on some music or the t.v. and stay on it as long as possible. For me at first it was 30 minutes, and that was fast/slow/fast/slow. But sooner than later, I got to where I could run 3 miles every night and the weight just fell off. You can do this and you can do it for you. You will be a better mother, wife, lover and friend. You will live longer and be happier and you deserve that. Good luck girl!
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Posted by shemelts
on 2008-03-24 10:57:21
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hi chrissy! this is really a great way to get all ur negative thoughts out and leave it here.. welcome to blogging!: )
yeah i agree with the water therapy and you'll get to love water after awhile ;D plus, it helps if you don't eat anything after 6 in the evening. i'm a nurse so i'm really dedicated to being healthy, not just being thin. good luck & God bless!
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Posted by nichan
on 2008-03-25 01:34:10
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oh but if you have chronic conditions such as diabetes or heart problems you'll have to check with the doctor & a dietitian 'coz you can't drink too much water... and it has to be small, frequent meals rather than starving yourself. Hope this helps!
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Posted by nichan
on 2008-03-25 01:49:15
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EVERYTHING in MODERATION!
its hard i no.. stick with it!
you're health is worth fighting for!
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Posted by rinniez
on 2008-03-25 22:06:16
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