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Being Bipolar
I am Bipolar type 2. I know that the people around sometimes have a hard time dealing with me. I wish they could walk a day in my shoes. No matter how hard it is for any one person to deal with me, it is even harder for me to deal with it all. I try for the most part to......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-04 20:45:59 | Rating:

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My Birthday is Saturday
My oldest son asked again how old I was going to be on my birthday on Saturday. They have been having a countdown since May 1st, for both my birthday and Mother's day. My oldest wants to take me to see the new Speed Racer movie because my mom had told him that it was one of my favorite......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-05 18:13:38 | Rating:

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Insomnia
I wrote this poem when I was 14 or 15. I didn't know that I was bipolar at that time but looking back and reading this, I think that even then it was fairly clear. Insomnia I stay up late at night thinking, Everything seems to be sinking, I feel as if I am crossing the......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-06 00:00:41 | Rating:

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Get a Clue
This one I wrote when me and my ex-husband was getting divorced because he was always acting like he could still control me and abuse me and whatever. I got sick of it. Anyone that reads this let me know what you think. Get a clue You preach to me still, Really, I've had......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-06 00:05:29 | Rating:

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Maybe someday
I wrote this sometime after I had met my stalker and he was busy making my life hell and before I met my new husband. I had lost faith in the human race and for sure lost faith in men and relationships. Maybe Someday I have so many sleepless nights, I remember so many of my......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-06 00:13:56 | Rating:

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Leave
This one is about the abuse my ex-husband put me through and how I was sick of it and knew it was time for me to leave. Leave Times spent, Lifes wasted, No energy, Where to run, How to run, I feel your darkness, I understand my hatred, Saving energy to run, My energy to......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-06 00:15:37 | Rating:

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I think I am cursed!!!!
I don't have to do anything and my life sucks. Listen to this bullshit that's going in now. My father-in-law in jail for murdering his girlfriend last night. How totally fucked up and crazy and fucked up is that. We live in a small, tight community and tomarrow everyone......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-06 17:09:21 | Rating:

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I now feel unsafe!!!!
There is so much crap going around. There is this guy named Micky who was good friends with my father-in-law's girlfriend. This going to get somewhat confusing just to warn you. Ok so Micky is friend with my aunt and their mutual friend Kevin is staying with Micky. My mom has......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-07 12:00:36 | Rating:

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Confrontation
I confronted that Micky guy this evening. My aunt had called me and told me that Micky wanted my husband to apologize to him and he would leave things alone. My aunt was trying to talk to me into having my husband actual do it just to defuse the situation. I told her that......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-08 00:28:08 | Rating:

| Views: 71 | Comments: 0 | Tags: idoits fatherinlaw scared afraid ignorance

Just some thoughts on being cursed
It's weird how on Monday morning I was contemplating what kind of cake I should have for my birthday on Saturday and if I should let the kids crack the eggs or not. Monday morning I also predicted that if there was a way for my birthday to be wash, that it would happen. All I......Read More